So these past 2 weeks I've been super busy teaching a high school dance camp, choreographing, & running errands. I haven't been to church or in good fellowship in 2 weeks. I've been to busy and/or exhausted to take time to seek God or be with Him, and when I tried I didn't even know how to be still anymore. I even felt unworthy of being in God's presence. I became so consumed w/ "worldy" things & even began becoming anxious about things I'm normally not worried about such as my future & money. I began to rely on my strength alone which soon caught up w/ me, physically & spiritually.
Last night, Ryan, being the amazing boyfriend he is, felt led by the Spirit to encourage me via a FB message. He reminded me that God is good & that there is no better way to live than to seek and serve God. So today, I finally got to the point where I couldn't take it anymore.
After journaling for 2 hours @ Starbucks and coming home to read the Word and worship for another hour, I re-discovered just how true Ryan's statement is. Although I'm making good $ and teaching & choreographing with people I love, NOTHING COMPARES to BEING in PRESENCE OF GOD. After my time w/ Him I felt totally refreshed. I had so much joy and peace than I've had for a while. (P.S. It's been a long time since I've wanted to pick up my guitar and just praise God. I think it's because I'm not that great @ playing but I prayed that I would stand in the confidence in the TRUTH of who I am in Christ & voila! He answered it.)
Later He answered so many other of my prayers! I also talked to 2 of my friends I met in Europe...one from Bosnia, & one from Ohio & they told me all that God has done & is doing in their lives. After that I listened to a podcast from RH church & I was just reminded of how good God is & all that he's done in my life, I began to weep.
His presence just hit me like a rushing wind I was overwhelmed w/ joy that it brought me to a puddle of tears on my pillow. What better thing to do than to listen to "Where I Belong" by Matt Gillman & Cory Asbury.
"I finally found where I belong. It's to be with You."
Amen brothas. Preach it.
so true sister! you finally came home! I too have been learning the reality of God's presence being the best thing for me... it's where I am finally and completely home!
ReplyDeleteThis was encouraging and I definitely needed to read it. I need to step back and take that time as well. Been so consumed by other things and not giving God any time at all. Love you and praying for you. God is using you in mighty ways :) so thankful I got to know you this summer!
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